As I try to re-invent my life, it's funny, because all I can think of is how I can help other people with my hopefully triumphant, small or big, victories. When you go through something tragic, you learn a lot of life lessons, if you choose to wake up.

What I have come to find, ironically, is that for all of my hopes and desires over the years, all I ever really wanted out them was to touch other people. I realize that one of my favorite things ever is to make people laugh. I have made so many people I love sad the past few years, when I used to bring them laughter and happiness, that I feel a great desire to bring joy again. To give love and receive it in return. I want X amount of money or X career,(I never by the way, thought in terms of money- which has it's good and bad points) in the end is just a means to bringing people, especially those you love and that love you, joy. It all comes back to this desire. That is why I so strongly believe you should do what your heart tells you to do, otherwise you will be too unhappy to bring it to anyone else. That's all we are trying to do, give love (in it's many forms) and get it. You know I always knew this and tried to live this way, but when I became so self consumed with my own mis perceived troubles (meaning: things were not as bad as I made them to be) , I had nothing to give. You cannot make everyone happy, but if you do all you can to make your life happy, the things that make you healthy and happy, the rest will follow and it will happen by default.

Funny how things can be so clear in the midst of turmoil. I am ever hopeful.

In staying with that feeling I guess my SOTD should be my sweet James Taylor favorite:
http://www.deezer.com/track/1013780